I just got the call...
Curtis passed away at about 10:30 tonight. Kristi just called to let me know. For anyone who reads this blog that I haven't gotten to yet, I just wanted to let you know.
You know, even though I didn't really like him, this is tough for me. I think it's tough because I didn't like him. I can remember many a harsh word to or about him in the 6 years that Kristi & I have been friends, and I am ashamed of myself. To think that I could be so hateful toward someone...mostly over crap that was really stupid...mostly because I got my feelings hurt when my best friend at the time chose someone else over me. To think that I could be so selfish... I am very sorry for the way that I have acted in the past. While it may be "ancient" history, it is something that I will never really get to apologize for...not to the person who it was against, anyway.
Another reason why this is tough for me is because this young man was my husband's age. For one of the first times, I really put myself in Kristi's shoes. If Brian died tomorrow, I don't know what I would do. This makes me want to hold on to him that much tighter. To think that someone so young could leave this earth before having the opportunity to thoroughly enjoy this life...before completing the college degree that he was working so hard for...before marrying his girlfriend of 7 years... To think that Kristi, at the young age of 24, has to deal with such a terrible loss to such a terrible disease...that she now has to put any thought that she ever had of having a life with this man completely behind her and start completely from scratch...
I guess I'm just rambling now, but that's what the blog world is for, right?
Hug your kids. Hug your spouse. Hug your parents. Hug each of them extra tight tonight.
You know, even though I didn't really like him, this is tough for me. I think it's tough because I didn't like him. I can remember many a harsh word to or about him in the 6 years that Kristi & I have been friends, and I am ashamed of myself. To think that I could be so hateful toward someone...mostly over crap that was really stupid...mostly because I got my feelings hurt when my best friend at the time chose someone else over me. To think that I could be so selfish... I am very sorry for the way that I have acted in the past. While it may be "ancient" history, it is something that I will never really get to apologize for...not to the person who it was against, anyway.
Another reason why this is tough for me is because this young man was my husband's age. For one of the first times, I really put myself in Kristi's shoes. If Brian died tomorrow, I don't know what I would do. This makes me want to hold on to him that much tighter. To think that someone so young could leave this earth before having the opportunity to thoroughly enjoy this life...before completing the college degree that he was working so hard for...before marrying his girlfriend of 7 years... To think that Kristi, at the young age of 24, has to deal with such a terrible loss to such a terrible disease...that she now has to put any thought that she ever had of having a life with this man completely behind her and start completely from scratch...
I guess I'm just rambling now, but that's what the blog world is for, right?
Hug your kids. Hug your spouse. Hug your parents. Hug each of them extra tight tonight.
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10:51 PM
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